this is a test to see if i can organize thoughts...at all.

uhm...i think i did something bad to my head.

ow.

i am blogging.

this morning, i ate the peanut butter puffin cereal that nom nom sent me.

awesomeness yo...delicious.

JOHNNY CUPCAKE!

i played ryan and elias in tennis.
i won 6-3 against ryan and 6-1 against elias...

uhh...my stomach hurts.

i ate a lot of food at club expo...i think i ate half of our club's food...that we were suposed to sell.. wooops.
*burp.

OH. we randomly had cupcakes...even though we are chinese club.
i ate those too.

i felt totally G rockin my johnny cupcake shirt that nom nom gave me :D


ow. i get these periodic head throbs.

i dont want to say why my head hurts because its stupid.
and you will laugh.
or maybe you will be like "wtf"

math test...i did better.

i haven't talked for a couple of hours.

i super glued my phone case.
yay.
crazy glue ftw.!

my stomach is killing me.

i swear...that mocha frappacino i had in the morning was a bad idea.
it had me cracked up all but i crashed so hard...and during the wrong time.

the time i was awake...uhm it was like 97% high energy 3% focus


did this make sense? i heard something about shrimp scampi for dinner.

ol' school yo

look at me...

rockin' the beat up converse weapons...
OL' SCHOOL.
thats wassup.

and the shirt that greg got me from japan. wooh.
Project Arms.

its a little small on me, but its all good. at least i know its supposed to be because its a size small...
unlike the American Apparel jacket that i got...
which is a size 2XL and yet i am still too LARGE.
or maybe it is simply too small.

im a boss.

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why don't you just keep it real?...
say it how it is, man.
cut the bullship and tell me how it REALLY happened.

seriously...as much as i enjoy hyperboles and exaggeration for comical means...
i abhor the distortion of facts to heighten one's peer status.

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i had a long talk with my mom today...it was cool.
deep stuff yo.
because me and my mom are tight like that.

...even though she harangued me earlier today
when i was on the phone with nom nom...haha sorry about that.

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on a really awesome note...
NOM NOM's package was delivered today!

i was at the APUSH study session after school today and jennifer texts me, telling me that i "have a package from tiffany ding" haha.
super stoked to come home and make a video and eat eggs and blah blah blah blah...anyways!
SUPER dooper munchies and treats and sweets etc etc...

*looks at belly pooch
.........

*sighs.

OH well ! :D

AWESOME!!!!!!!!

'tis glorious...

wonderful...absolutely wonderful.


THANK YOU, NOM NOM! i love you!

chewie<3nom nom.


woooohhheeeeee.

off to plumpen and fatten myself...!

word to your mother

before hairspray.

to nom nom...2 words: belly pooch...! ]:
......

2 MORE words: BAD tan.

omg its so freaking late. i hate myself. wtheck am i doing.

im going to wake up in 3 hours.

this doesn't look so good...

going to bed kind of glum...again?
...bleh.

i know you won't read this.


you dont know.
and im not sure if you ever will.

i say it straight to your face all the time...
alas...the cycle continues.
nothing changes.

you're so oblivious.

i can't stand it.

im scared that you'll never learn.
because you can't teach an old dog new tricks...or can you?

its ironic, because you claim that you want to change...
yet you hold onto your past, despite your knowing the damage it has on you.
what is it that keeps you from letting go and growing up? moving on?
and here, i thought ...nvm
i guess wisdom doesn't always come with experience and age.

...its because you don't understand.
its because you can't and won't understand.
you refuse to learn.

is it possible?...one day...?
*hopes

...maybe one day...*crosses fingers.


thanks, though
i like learning by counter-example [sarcasm?]


*sighs.


i love you.
i love you to death, but i won't grow up to be like you.
i promise.
you'll be more proud of me this way, trust me.
i promise.

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i want to write some lines...but i have APUSH homework...

omg.
SAT on saturday...and APUSH Exam next friday.

good luck, comrades.

wow...uhm. disregard that. i think

wow...uhm. disregard that. i think im going to delete that post when i get home....
yeah.

did one of those random itunes shuffle survey things...

i found a track...

gah...i swear i want to runaway and cry and stupid ish like that.

i think maybe i just need someone to talk to and listen.
i think i need a hug.

dont listen to me. ignore me.
i should be sleeping, and im not...so this is what i get.

.......

i think i am going to sob.

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

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i have been kind of bummed lately.
sad? i guess.

idk whats up with me.
idk why im trippinn...

bleh...anyways. i need to snap out of it...and pronto

i know i'll probably sleep it off tonight, and be okay in the morning...but until then.
and for future concern...i need to stop this.

i drank a gallon of water in the past 35 minutes..............................
*bloat

i had 2 breakfast burritos for dinner tonight.
im becoming larger and larger.

not good.

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers

I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure
Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
I ain't never supposed to show it, my crew ain't supposed to know it
Even if it means goin' toe to toe with a Benzino it don't matter
I'd never drag them in battles that I can handle unless I absolutely have to
I'm supposed to set an example
I need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide 'em
If some shit ever does pop off, I'm supposed to be beside 'em
That Ja shit I tried to squash it, it was too late to stop it
There's a certain line you just don't cross and he crossed it
I heard him say Hailie's name on a song and I just lost it
It was crazy, this shit went way beyond some Jay-z and Nas shit
And even though the battle was won, I feel like we lost it
I spent too much energy on it, honestly I'm exhausted
And I'm so caught in it I almost feel I'm the one who caused it
This ain't what I'm in hip-hop for, it's not why I got in it
That was never my object for someone to get killed
Why would I wanna destroy something I help build
It wasn't my intentions, my intentions was good
I went through my whole career without ever mentionin' Suge
And that was just out of respect for not runnin' my mouth
And talkin' about something that I knew nothing about
Plus Dre told me stay out, this just wasn't my beef
So I did, I just fell back, watched and gritted my teeth
While he's all over t.v. down talkin' a man who literally saved my life
Like fuck it i understand this is business
And this shit just isn't none of my business
But still knowin' this shit could pop off at any minute cause

There used to be a time when you could just say a rhyme
And wouldn't have to worry about one of your people dyin'
But now it's elevated cause once you put someone's kids in it
The shit gets escalated, it ain't just words no more is it?
It's a different ball game, callin' names and you ain't just rappin'
We actually tried to stop the 50 and Ja beef from happenin'
Me and Dre had sat with him, kicked it and had a chat with him
And asked him not to start it he wasn't gonna go after him
Until Ja started yappin' in magazines how we stabbed him
Fuck it 50 smash 'em, mash 'em and let him have it
Meanwhile my attention is pullin' in other directions
Some receptionist at The Source who answers phones at his desk
Has an erection for me and thinks that I'll be his resurrection
Tries to blow the dust off his mic and make a new record
But now he's fucked the game up cause one of the ways I came up
Was through that publication the same one that made me famous
Now the owner of it has got a grudge against me for nothin'
Well fuck it, that motherfucker can get it too, fuck him then
But I'm so busy being pissed off I don't stop to think
That we just inherited 50's beef with Murder Inc.
And he's inherited mine which is fine ain't like either of us mind
We still have soldiers that's on the front line
That's willing to die for us as soon as we give the orders
Never to extort us, strictly to show they support us
We'll maybe shout 'em out in a rap or up in a chorus
To show them we love 'em back and let 'em know how important it is
To have Runyan Avenue, soldiers up in our corners
Their loyalty to us is worth more than any award is
But I ain't tryna have none of my people hurt and murdered
It ain't worth it, I can't think of a perfecter way to word it
Then to just say that I love ya'll too much to see the verdict
I'll walk away from it all before I let it go any further
But don't get it twisted, it's not a plea that I'm coppin'
I'm just willin' to be the bigger man
If ya'll can quit poppin' off at the jaws, well then I can
Cause frankly I'm sick of talkin'
I'm not gonna let someone else's coffin rest on my conscience cause

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers

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i had breakfast burritos for dinner today. nice.

i won my #1 singles match against hami today. yayuh...

i should be doing homework. uhg...im so BLEH right now.

peace...


oh ohhh uh huh yeah.

i miss you.

*delete delete delete............

deuce...its monday tomrrow.

im so ADD right now...omg. its been 2 hours and ive done 3 english entries...i FAIL.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!

tomorrow is her birthday...and shes going to Disneyland.
how awesome is that?


work work workk...WORK.

im doing my IRL on lemony snicket's series of unfortunate events. i rule.

not a happy camper.

*sigh.

motherfudger.

i swear i dont want to be dead, i just dont wish to be like this...

i read my fb notes over and it made me feel ridiculous. i think im going to make them all private.

looking back i look like a major psycho. haha...uhm. darn.

i dont feel like talking about feelings.
not now.

at least i am not acutely nostalgic like i used to be...i dont think, at least.

darn it.

i keep procrastinating...i swear i have ADD.
idk whats up with me...

im so confused.

please be real.
stop being such a fake-o...thats not cool.

im going to go crash into the sun and die.

stolen from nicko

1. Have you ever had braces?
nah.

2. Do you think you're pretty?
im PRETTY...hungry right now.

3. Do you brush your teeth daily?
2 to 3 times a day

4. If you forget to brush them, do you feel gross?
uhh...major.

5. What was the last thing that you printed?
camp forms

6. Did you vote for Obama?
im only 16......i would have voted for green party though...sike

7. Do you have a cell? If so, what kind do you have?
yes. lg env2...i abhor verizon...uhg.

8. Do you have any annoying cousins?
they're all 7 and under...uhm.

9. What's your favorite number?
idk...17?

10. What about color?
blue in general...but it depends on what.

11. What color socks are you wearing?
mostly white with grey heels and black stripes....................adidas

12. Name 5 things you want to do before you die.
1. get married and have children take over the world. nom nom nom munch
2. become yelp elite (this goal is sort of on hold, until i am legal and qualified)
3. travel...A LOT.
4. have eaten an expansive variety of food (always down for new food!...almost always.)
5. jizz in my pants from eating something that amazing.

13. Do you like Miley Cyrus?
i don't know her songs. i dont really care.

14. What about Jonas Brothers?
same as 13

15. Do you play an instrument?
used to...not really anymore.

16. If so, have you ever been to band camp?
im too cool for that, yo! haha...nah. ive just never been.

17. What's your favorite shape?
cupcake-shaped...or aviator ish shaped

18. Do you doodle a lot in school?
a little...some...enough...yeah.

19. What was your worst subject?
history...darn it.

20. What kind of music do you listen to?
hip hop, rap, r&b...some rock and alternative? used to listen to some j-pop.

21. Have you ever heard of Britt Nicole?
singer? never heard any of her songs though.

22. Are your nails painted?
no...is this survey for girls?

23. Have you ever been to a spa?
technically...

24. Do you go tanning?
no.

25. Does anything hurt on your body?
nooooooooo.

meh...ive taken better surveys.

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flashback psycho.

some used to say i had a big heart.
tell me i have a heavy heart.
tell me i have a cold heart.
tell me i am heartless.
—tell me i have an icebox where my heart used to be.


I once had faith in who I thought were warm people.
But I found everyone is ice in a world cold as snow.
Not a winter wonder land.
A fantasy gone wrong.

You can't hide who you are from the world forever.
Who you really are isn't hard to discover.
Put up your facade when you face the the world.
Everything you think is based on what you are told.
You show your true colors
When you're "under the covers",
In the back stage,
But I can see right through you
Like the glass on a gauge.
Dodge me true
You think you're fast
You won't get by, I can see right past
Because I can read you like the gauge in the glass
I can see right through you and read your intentions.
God, please help me with divine intervention.
From a world so sick, I'm sorry that I'm part of it too.
There's no point of lying because You can see right through.

Establish a maze, a wall around your "heart".
To hide your non-existent heart. Say I contradict myself, a controversy of paradox.
You're a heartless being. Haha. Isn't it Ironic.
We're all slowly going insane.
Use this maze you created and like Jig-Saw—
You want to play a game.
Step on whoever it takes to make yourself a name.
Do whatever it takes to make it to fame.
You're not any different from anyone else
You're all the same.

Mind my own buisness.
Tell me "Go back to the country you came from"
IM FROM AMERICA YOU STUPID ASH.

What do you hold close to yourself?

Maintain your own safety.
Compromise yourself.
Strive for complacency. Haha.
I laugh.

But you're heartless.
We're all heartless.
Maybe you don't know,
Or say that you aren't, [or at least that you show..]
Yeah whatever.
You piss me off.
We all have a soul,
You have yours, and it has its own goals;
Establish the American Dream, strive for complacency.
But your soul watches from the inside,
Waiting for corruption.
Giving into greed—
Pride and seduction.

but you're nothing
that i once thought you were.
i once thought we were alike.
but nobodys the same.

but maybe someday i'll be just like you
and step on people like you do
pissed off at people
who are teaching me how to hate.
i'll let my words fly and hope this world is great.
"things will work out for the best", it's all part of fate.

It's people like you.
Who make people like me.

I have a heart.
This muscle still beats.
But it pumps streams of ice
Out on the streets.

like im stupid standing for
what im standing for
i'm sick of being treated like i have before.

you don't know what you got til it's gone.


I guess this is fate.



I'm NOBODY's BEACH, BETCH.

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im tired...really tired.

and that was disgusting. i can't believe that once came from me.

i am an idealist.
i have an idea list.

DARN. im craving kbbq now and theres NO way i can attain any...my brother went tonight without me...with his friends.
because they're cool and im not.

boo.

i miss you, gyenari.
your kalbi is so bomb @ss...and bulgogi...foodgasmical.

tonight was fun. cupcake nomm nom nom.

checkkk it on youtube.

this post serves no true purpose. [:

but i am going to go to bed. good night.

right now im just chillin
just like another villain
hangin out like dracula
on the freakin ceilin

i dont know what to do...im at work...i already munched on some ritz peanut butter bitz...

that AP mock test wasnt as bad as i thought but it was still painful.
ohhh...but i guess it was worth it because there was free bagels and donuts...omg i grabbed like 5.

phone is dying...

Like A Boss



there's too much to say about Ojai...im too tired...

etc...omg and tomorrow i have a mock AP test...shizzle. i should get some shut eye...

i made a couple vids on youtube this week. check em outtt.
http://www.youtube.com/user/CHiNKLiGHTNiNG

you see that day you left me
for another dude
and now your heart is empty
feeling so confused
now you want me back
tryna reattatch
beggin please
on your knees
tryna suck me back
but u gon and broke my heart
into a million pieces
i should have seen it coming
wish i had telekenesis
and then you said youre leaving
your heart so cold as ice
had to go and freeze us
i cant love you,no
no and i cant speak this
the only one who can save us
is Jesus.

no, you cant control me, baby.

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on the way to the Ojai tennis tournament.
wish me luck!

why am i still up???

i was planning to go to bed at 11 but currently its 2...why am i still up? or rather, why do i refuse to sleep...ahh bad steven...i have the Ojai tennis tournament tomorrow and have to get up in less than 4 hours...

i think im seriously going to go on a DIE-t. even if it means torturing my poor stomach and appetite...im tired of feeling 8% human and 92% jelly.

i think we are going to get some BOMB burritos tomorrow...ehehe.

just made another vid for nom nom.
:]

oh gosh...blogging in bed...i hope i dont fail and fall asleep like yesterday...and then accidentally erase it in the morning...haha.

speaking of fail...i was having brain fails all over the place today...ehh...

oh i lost my tennis match 5-7, 4-6 against westchester...
the other player was good so im not trippinnn. i wish i played singles #4 today, though. because i wanted to play against james brown...hes hilarious.

well im going to be out for the next 2 days...so call/text me...! :D

goodnight!...before i fail again...

i was blogging from my phone in bed last night and i fell asleep...my phone drained 30% and when i woke up, i accidentally erased the draft...i so fail.
i had a good post but i was so tired i dont remember what it was about...well most of it.

currently listening to:
Hard To Let You Go - Colby O'donis

well, i just have to get past the math test and the tennis match againt Westchester...
yay for virtual fridays.
Ojai tomorrow...

gosh its freaking hot. im at school, in the hallway and i thought it was supposed to be colder today but its still pretty warm ....happy wednesday to you and virtual friday to me. haha.

bell just rung
peace!

*snap snap snap

*ka-tchhh.

Robby says that I should take a picture everday
for the rest of my life
and watch it on a super fast slide show
so I can watch myself age.

haha.

Ronnie's raised their prices...boo...

This was $7.95...

It used to be $5.50 or something...like that.

still good, but i didn't order ranch sauce...because they charge...
another BOO.

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im addicted to these cookies the Ariyasus gave us...i keep munching and munching...theyre so soft, sweet and good...flavor and texture is perfectt...

3 waying with nom nom was freaking hilarious last night...

twitter is still uber addicting. good thing you dont smoke it.

i am anxiously awaiting my "reply" from the fly in a white suit that cries.

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we beat LACES...did i mention that already?
well at least i didn't get into another fight with the douche coach.
off to do homework...?

white out

you wrote on my heart.
the story of my life.
you touched it with permanent ink.
time i cant ever get back
and memories i can never relive...

but
im moving up from here
because you sunk me down so low.
indelible marks...
cant let the past hinder the future.
i thank you for the times we shared and lessons i learned.
but i wont forget you
and i promise i wont cry for you
anymore.

life
goes
on

im good. i swear :]

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im anxious to see what/if creepo replies back from my message. mwaha.

its still hot...

oh yeah! were currently playing against LACES. ibeat their #2 singles 6-1, 6-0.

i have to be a line judge now. peace.

ohh shiz

first off...id like to apologize. haha i didnt think anybody read my blog anymore or to begin with. haha uhm after switching all of my email account, i forgot to switch the blogger notification via email...so everything was sent to my azn_sushi_boi@hotmail.com email. oh well. i got everything straightened out and now i should know when i get comments. haha.

currently im at school...blogging because there is a firedrill and we are all roasting on the football field...so...hot...

darn. i was feeling like garbage this morning because i had bbq pork + eggs...BAD idea. i dont like pork anymore...but i still love bacon. ehe.
i got a super bad stomacheache from it...until i finally took care of business *ahem.

CONCLUSION: bbq in the morning is dangerous...especially pork. kbbq might be an exception..hehe

*starved
omg its burning...ROASTING.
oo...roast beef...mm.

ITS SO HOTT!!!

seriously delirious? nahhhh. pshhyahh

before getting this post up...
there was an Autosave FAIL

how honest. it even admits to it's failure [:

blame it on the moose
got you feeling blues
blame it on the phone
got you speaking tones
blame it on the la-la-la-la-la-lack of sleep.
blame it on the la-la-la-la-la-lack of sleep.
blame it on the pizza
blame it on the Denny's
blame it on on the douchebag
got you feeling Wendy's
blame it on the la-la-la-la-la-lack of sleep.
blame it on the la-la-la-la-la-lack of sleep.

do you like the flavor of douche?

a little while late last year, i refused to eat other than for absolute necessity.
no matter how hungry i got, i never possessed an appetite
days would go by where all i would eat all day was a costco powershake.
one time, my family even offered to take me ANYWHERE to eat...anywhere.
because they noticed that i was hardly eating.
i said i wasn't hungry and that eating at home was fine.
wow...now that i look back
i wonder,
wtheck was wrong with me not even KBBQ!?
i mean...seriously though...
where's the resilience?

so i was told to take a picture like this (late last year)...
and compare to a picture around now-ish time.
you can tell it's old because i sort of still did my hair like that...
and the necklace, of course.
（i had just woken up, hence the glasses）
and look at my fat-ash now.
*blub

p.s. my tan
FAILS.

obviously as well as my pseudo-"atkins diet".
aka FAILING.

糟糕！ 我 是 很 肥。

sorry to major sound like a girl...but holy chadolbaegi,
i got FAT.

so i ask again. do you?

well apparently, i'm too tired to care.
but who cares anyways.
this is my blogspot yo!
got a problem? deal with it.
can't deal with it? you're a retard, just re-navigate from the page...
can't re-navigate? my apologies, you're probably 85 years old.

"diet is just DIE...with a 'T' in front of it!!!"

oh shizz...its almost 3am.

im feeling sassy
you think you'll pass me?
im feeling saucy
you feelin bossy?

my head...hurts.

GARBAGE.!

"dad. is that mickey mouse on your shirt?
"no. it's TIT DIRT!"

wow...this brings back memories.
used to love this song...

Handlebars - Flobots

i love the symbolism used in the music video...i watched it like 4 times. great

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

Look at me, look at me
hands in the air like it's good to be
ALIVE
and I'm a famous rapper
even when the paths're all crookedy
I can show you how to do-si-do
I can show you how to scratch a record
I can take apart the remote control
And I can almost put it back together
I can tie a knot in a cherry stem
I can tell you about Leif Ericson
I know all the words to "De Colores"
And "I'm Proud to be an American"
Me and my friend saw a platypus
Me and my friend made a comic book
And guess how long it took
I can do anything that I want cuz, look:

I can keep rhythm with no metronome
No metronome
No metronome

I can see your face on the telephone
On the telephone
On the telephone

Look at me
Look at me
Just called to say that it's good to be
ALIVE
In such a small world
All curled up with a book to read
I can make money open up a thrift store
I can make a living off a magazine
I can design an engine sixty four
Miles to a gallon of gasoline
I can make new antibiotics
I can make computers survive aquatic conditions
I know how to run a business
And I can make you wanna buy a product
Movers shakers and producers
Me and my friends understand the future
I see the strings that control the systems
I can do anything with no assistance
I can lead a nation with a microphone
With a microphone
With a microphone
I can split the atoms of a molecule
Of a molecule
Of a molecule

Look at me
Look at me
Driving and I won't stop
And it feels so good to be
Alive and on top
My reach is global
My tower secure
My cause is noble
My power is pure
I can hand out a million vaccinations
Or let'em all die in exasperation
Have'em all healed of their lacerations
Have'em all killed by assassination
I can make anybody go to prison
Just because I don't like'em and
I can do anything with no permission
I have it all under my command
I can guide a missile by satellite
By satellite
By satellite
and I can hit a target through a telescope
Through a telescope
Through a telescope
and I can end the planet in a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handle bars
No handlebars

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

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nice is simple
simple is classic
classic is cool.
nice is cool.

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ahhhg.
atrophy is wearing away at me...
should i sleep now?

i was talking to moe moe and yu yu today
about the past. got me slightly nostalgic...AGAIN.
but im all good.
they are understanding and its nice to hear things from alternate perspectives and such.
they always been like my older sisters...

...speaking of which...im working tomorrow and there is a match Hai needs me to play.
cool...?

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uhm...question: What is the point of cheese pizza? (besides vegetarian accomodation)
isn't that a little redundant?
MOST all pizza have cheese...why not just get toppings? i dont count cheese as a topping, unless you get EXTRA cheese...but even then... COME ON. i need some meat...or at least mushrooms...or onions...or SOMETHING. plain cheese is boring...and honestly. if you're buying pizza for a group of people...and accomodating 1 person by order 2 cheese pizzas...thats selfish yo. and none of us our vegetarians. LOL. we all know that!
but not to say that cheese pizza is necessarily bad...pizza is just way too versatile to be restricted to cheese...just plain cheese is lame...there! i said it!—plain cheese pizza is lame.
at least throw some type of meat...or something on top of it.

please?

hmm...sorry to a big complainer, but when we put in money to order the pizza...why did ****** order 2 cheese pizzas? i mean, just because ******* is allergic to pepperoni, doesn't mean that we have to get 2!!...i mean, i don't mind accomodating to the cheese pizza lovers or vegetarians, but i was expecting 1 pepperoni and 1 cheese...i would have been cool with that, because we all put in cash wtfrickk yo. everyone was kind of disappointed. bleh. (am i really spending time trippin over this? yes.) come on now...its food we're talkin about.
oh, and even if you read this, you probably won't know its you, because you're too oblivious.

one time.
when i was about 4 or 5, me and my brother were making mother's day cards and i chose to make a blue card, because blue was my favorite color. i laughed at my brother when he grabbed a pink sheet, and he replied, "well it's for mommy, so i think that she will like pink better" haha. guess you do learn stuff from your siblings...haha. seriously. (duh!)

hmmm...but what do i mean by this.

"mannn, i'da just buy some freakin pizza myself next time yo...screw cheese pizza. WEAK sauce bro, WEAK SAUCE."

sorry. that was me being a complaining douchepon (douche + tampon)
because im good at math like that.

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im getting a little bit delirious...

chinkLiGHTNiNG: i can guide a missile by satellite
soholyromances: how
chinkLiGHTNiNG: because
im a beast
ahah
soholyromances: youre just sleepy
chinkLiGHTNiNG: ...maybe

GAME was cool
:D
i was so beat after today...and i didn't really do much. i think it was from sitting around all day...

*yawn...

my dad tried talking to me while i was half asleep in the car...
Dad: so how was GAME?
Me: ihh wahds ckill
Dad: what?
Me: ihhht wah school
Dad: oh...kay. what did you guys do?
Me: aye denoh...euhhhh...ad foordtweet.
Dad: nevermind.

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hmm.
what to do tonight...

i refuse to succumb to EMOness...

shoooooot. i have my essay due monday.

i AM going to eat those cupcakes. i swear.

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chewie<3nom nom

:D
Southwest Airlines
starting in August, fly to Boston for $49...but thats from BWI...
oh well.
im still excited to hopefully go see nom nom!!
saving up...

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im tired...can't type
anymore.

wait yes i can.

uhm...work was full with munchos.
junk food...make me so thirsty.
oreos, doritos, teddy grahams...can't even remember now. *yawn.

i WAS trying to sleep

i WAS trying to sleep but some douchebag on our block is doing donuts and i cant sleep.i swear im going to throw goatcheese on his windshield...

food coma...

we went

to Tahoe Galbi

for Korean BBQ

ryan and elias came to kbbq. ryan treated me :D thanks bro.

here is the aftermath

*flubble jiggle.

i havn't been able to work on extinguishing my farmer's tan...
but
eventually...

sooo much red meat. we had like 10 plates of meat.
me and greg still hold the record, though.

ehe.
i think ill just have chicken the rest of the week?

im about to knock out...food coma has left me
paralyzed in exhaustion...
?

i just finished the longest? most painful match ever.
i ended up winning 4-6, 7-5, 6-0.
wooooohhooooooo. bagel for that nigggaaaa.
haha. sorry

now i might go to korean bbq...omg im dreaming of chadolbaegi, bulgogi, kalbi.

nom nom called me today when i was feeling down. haha i was rather pissed.
so that made my day.

i cant say anything more...because my stomach is talking to me and i can think. i have been running on less than 3 hours of sleep today.

to go to kbbq or not to go to kbbq?
wow that soounds like an easy question but i dont know because my mom will butcher me if i dont do my test corrections.

*stomach growls.

i NEED some foooddd... kbbq preferably

wow. i cant believe im losing sleep over this...im getting up in 3 hours...im not even on spring breakkk...frick.

waiting for my shower to get hot.

words are nothing without actions...

"baby i say i'da back it up with my life if i says to mean it."

i made another video for nom nom tonight. oh and i broke my desk. today...well ive had better days.

smile? eh. i need the weekend...im waking up in 4 hours. plus we have a match against fairfax tomorrow...lameeee...
so not in the mood for more tennis...especially ...ehh nvm.
ima hop in the shower and get my sleep before i do the APUSH chapter 28 questions.

goodnight world, i love you. hahaha.

i twittered a lot today...cool?
whatevs

i just realized i put
"FREE lover"....woops
it should be more like..."Lover of FREE"
HAHAH

low

I think that this is frickin unhealthy.
i thought i knew what i wanted but now i have beennn trippppinnn lately yo.

this blog has turned into a dump to ventilate my ish to lately. haha.
i have to stop myself from this. seriously.

my teammates are fighting over "nose goes"....seriously?

today...its just one of those...eh. nvm.

complain complain...
LOL

i dont even know what im sayin...

i cant wait until summer...im frickin just struggling through watever the deuce right now anyways.

imma put you to bed...bed...bed...
ima put you to bed.

i swear i might die tonight.

emo.
darn this emoness.
i dont have a reason. oh wait. yeah i do. i swear im trippin so frickin...blah

i am starved...i need some food.

i woke up early this morning to eat and check on a few things.
ihad eggs a roast beef sandwich, some dim sum and i brought my siu mai to school...*stomach growls.
blurpo is talking to me.

i also had a chicken bake.
8yawn im tired. i think i will nap on the way back to school and

blogging in bed.

i have decided that one of my personal vices is foodlust. lol.

i just brushed my teeth but i was seduced by the same yogurt raisins i thought i was tired of an hour ago...

Easter dinner food was reallllyyy goood. i went back for seconds and thirds on the baked sushi rolls...mm.

my stomach just growled.

im hungry...

this winter! woooh im excited because i might go to taiwan with nom nom!...? well i hope. i have to save up and convince my parents...hm.
thatll be so tight if it falls through though.
ive never been off of north america besides hawaii and catalina? haha but yeah...mainly because ill be with nom nom and well be chowing up and down on food nonstop :D

stomach just growled...again!

blast...i need some food, but im in bed already...too lazy.

*beep beep...

my internet went out. thats why i am texting my blog.

stomach growled again...

i will name my stomach blurpo.

blurpo wont leave me alone. he keeps talking to me *sighs
he, too, longs of food.

goodnight, blurpo.

a shadow cast over my blvd of broken dreams

lately more than ever...i have been having these...
lapses.
i cant find respite and i feel this restlessness and irritation.
sometimes i dont feel like im being rational but sometimes (lately) i just havnt felt like being rational. lol does that make sense? i guess im just stressed a little. im not sure...who know.
VERY sad that spring break is coming to a close.

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i once poured half of myself into a strainer (figuratively of course), hoping it would retain my blessings and hold through with my hopes and dreams. alas, it proved to be nothing much more than wasted time, money and feelings.

how typical.

i am past that...right?

i do believe that every human longs for intimacy and to be special and close to someone...mutually.

*sighs

i fail.

and i need to stop saying "fail"

i say it too much. 

im not sure who you are...am i still waiting for you? or do i know you already?

regardless...

i miss you. 

*dies dramatic death

im at a similar point where im unsure of exactly what im to do...
i dont know exactly whats going on.

uhm...

i feel you.
im feeling you.?

*click click

bored...
my brute.com. fun and addicting.

http://chinklightning.mybrute.com

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say whatttttttttttttttttttttttttt
today is one of those days?
i was sitting at home
you realize a lot of ish.
stuff goes down
and im not down for it.
kind of
heart broken and empty
sad
about
somethings
sometimes
food only fills up so much
of me.
food only fills up my
stomach?
*sigh

homework...must finish.

school...the thought is really bringing the mood down.
my sister woke me up by saying we only have 1 more day of spring break.
a lot hit me...

sorry.

maybe i just need someone to talk real shiP to.

to my nom nom

*rock rock
in my chair.



i think i will make another vblog.

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tired...but determined.


still confused.

just watched the video Nom Nom made for me :D
cute:D

i am tired...work tomorrow is going to be super boring...text me?

dude...i think i saw philip

dude...i think i saw philip wang at disney california adventure. he was wearing the shirt and looked so much like him. i should have taken a pic

chinkLiGHTN!NG goes to Disneyland/California Adventure

i win.

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currently eating pepperoni pizza and yogurt covered raisins...
keyboard is a little greasy and yogurty smelling. ehe

finally getting the youtube up...uploaded some last night.
didn't know that i had 3 accounts on accident. i thought the videos were deleted somehow. oh well. Lol.
FAIL.

i was so tired last night, im surprised i woke up before noon...
went to bed at 5:30am...woke up 6 hours later...
my parents and sister have been asleep for 10 hours. Lol.
why did i wake up? idk. lol but i woke up with 29 text messages.

im proud. my text message count is still under 2000!
woooh.

going to make nom nom's vid.