a shadow cast over my blvd of broken dreams

lately more than ever...i have been having these...
lapses.
i cant find respite and i feel this restlessness and irritation.
sometimes i dont feel like im being rational but sometimes (lately) i just havnt felt like being rational. lol does that make sense? i guess im just stressed a little. im not sure...who know.
VERY sad that spring break is coming to a close.

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i once poured half of myself into a strainer (figuratively of course), hoping it would retain my blessings and hold through with my hopes and dreams. alas, it proved to be nothing much more than wasted time, money and feelings.

how typical.

i am past that...right?

i do believe that every human longs for intimacy and to be special and close to someone...mutually.

*sighs

i fail.

and i need to stop saying "fail"

i say it too much. 

im not sure who you are...am i still waiting for you? or do i know you already?

regardless...

i miss you. 

*dies dramatic death