ambiguity only leads to suspicion.

i don't like it when people are vague...especially when i'm purposely trying to clarify something. to someone, to myself...for anything. it makes me wonder more, ask more questions, become more anxious. theres a time to be vague but being vague never helped clear anybody's name. i understand that there are boundaries and that somethings are clearly not my business. but that's not where i'm sticking my nose, so i want to at least know the truth. i hate it when people lie to me. i honestly can't stand it. even if you think something is a white lie, it can still come around and hurt somebody.
just be clear and honest with me, please. i want the whole truth and not some skirted, around about half truth. i dont understand whats so difficult about telling the truth if theres nothing to hide.
i'm not accusing anyone of anything, but im just frustrated that i can't get the whole truth when i know i deserve it.

i honestly

don't need much to be happy. i'd honestly consider myself low maintenance?
its just...over and over.
i feel like a dog thats been waiting all day just to be thrown a bone. just a bone.

i need you to at least meet me half-way...

this hurts a lot.

i think

i've reached my capacity of making things better, not my limit to do more, but to any extent of effectiveness. im just old news by now. i'm routine and probably getting less interesting by the day.

not that i am unwilling, but rather inadequate.

i dont know.

deja vu.

i tell myself not to give up but i get no where and things stay the same.

i doubt that i am making you as happy as you deserve.

and i feel like i'm sure someone new will make you happier. i love your smile but it doesn't shine on me anymore.

i'm trying, i promise. i've been trying.

i'm sorry.

what the

i hate that feeling where you know you should be able to trust someone but then at the same time something in your gut suspects that they have ulterior motives and crap.

idk. i think the whole situation makes me feel insignificant because well...just in case someone actually read this, nvm.

if you truly care about someone, youll want them to be happy. you want them to be happy with you, but if they aren't, it'd be selfish to make them stay

i seriously have to say

i seriously have to say to myself in my head "you're not a complete loser. God loves you. God loves you."

I am understood?

You looked into my life and never stopped and you're thinking all my thoughts are so simple, but so beautiful and you recite my words right back to me before I even speak you let me know, I am understood

boring obnoxious.

tired.

i like the post formatting on blogspot better thantumblr. but i like tumblr's home page/dashboard setup a lot more.

so tired...need more sleep.

so tired...need more sleep.