roll call

"just looking out for numero uno"

stfu

alcohol drinking
lighting up the flame
casual sex
a player of the game
in the name of fun
fun to make a name
party it up
the crowd all does the same
temporary happiness
a void within the heart
pride and denial
tears the soul apart
escaping from the pain
thinking no one knows the same
but guard yourself
trust me when i say
a souls a dime a dozen
they feed off ones emptiness
i saw it consume my cousin
looking for happiness
in all the wrong places
searching dark corners and
lonely empty spaces
listening to the voices
they get up in your faces

...

but no
its not about you.
try humbling yourself
for a change




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"No matter what i do, im always disappointing someone.
Then just make you don't disappoint the wrong people"



i try hard not to dwell on things past...but
sometimes when these thoughts come back to haunt me, i just want to soak it in. sometimes i want to remember all the pain and crap. i get hot and this anger takes over...i hate it.
i just want to let go.

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on a side note.
i think its really funny when i see one person trying to make small talk, and the other pouring out his life story...and im not sure who to feel sorry for.